Hateship, Friendship, Courtship, Loveship, Marriage

...in the life cycle of insects. Currently at that stage of courtship where I spend all my time loading old music into a little black contraption that plays it back to me, pushing a grocery cart in the produce section pausing in front of the parsley to assess whether it's worth it to run my fingers through the crenellations, falling asleep under uncomfortable sheets in the mid-afternoon to Richard Bruckner lullabies, waking up and feeling a strong urge not to read Contracts, dawdling until way past dark, and then loathing myself for not trying harder. It's finals, folks, the time to test one's ability to endure anxiety!

Current ability to endure anxiety is low and ebbing. Uh-oh.